things you shouldn't say on the first date

Hi my name is Hannah nice to meet you my favorite color is green and sometimes I am afraid of people. If I was given three wishes I would wish for a less lopsided face and for everyone to love themselves and I would do it in that order because I'm an idiot but I don't want everyone else to feel like one and I probably wouldn't even use the third wish because that's too much pressure for me. If I could spend the day with three people dead or alive I would choose Bill Cosby, Nelson Mandela and I want to say Beyonce but I also don't because I feel like I would freak out too much and it would just be a waste of a person BUT I REALLY JUST WANT HER TO TEACH ME HOW TO DANCE OKAY?!?! In the morning I like my eggs scrambled. In my spare time I liked to take naps and read books and go on hikes and pet dogs and make smoothies and salsa but not together and watch tv and try to learn how to rap and find out the best way to make a quesadilla and sometimes I play soccer and I can also play video game soccer and sometimes I watch movies by myself and cry and sometimes I watch movies with other people and cry and sometimes/a lot of times I spend too much time on the internet and I don't really understand the sudden hype over Birkenstocks and Chacos and sometimes I think I wont make it into heaven and sometimes I cry about it because I would miss out on so much. My favorite food is Italian/carbs. My pet peeves are people who correct other peoples grammar and people who are closed minded and everyone who has ever cut me off ever and all sophomores because they don't seem to care about anything and its annoying also people who are full of themselves. In 10 years I see myself at about the same place, hopefully I'm a little happier and smarter and more independent and with more people in my life i.e. a babe of a husband. Or a dog. Maybe I'll still live in Utah or maybe I won't, Portland seems cool, but so does Scotland so who knows. I am more of a night owl than a morning person and I can't remember the last time I watched a sunrise. I am the oldest of for siblings and I have a dad who is a dentist and a mom who is a mom. My biggest role model in life is probably Jesus Christ because he knows how to treat people. My specialty dishes are pastas and and brownies and if you can make a better tasting salsa than me I'll probably marry you on the spot. I'm financially saving up to travel the world, but I feel like everyone does that too and then they end up staying home and paying taxes so we'll see how well that turns out. I always say Remember the Titans is my favorite movie because boys freak out and think its cool but I actually really like it a lot and I also like Warrior and I cry every time the brothers fight each other. I actually cry during almost every movie because I get too emotionally invested in everything. I saw the Amazing Spider-Man 2 a couple weeks ago and that was rough.. I have never kept a New Years resolution and my ideal date is anywhere I can feel close to someone. The last time I cried was yesterday when I saw a couple pulled to the side of the road beating each other up in their car and then the man threw the woman out of the car onto the road and I called 911 and cried the whole way home. I believe in foreshadowing. If I won a million dollars I would spend it on a waterbed, stocks, a dog, and probably the best charity or something. The first CD I ever bought was the Shrek soundtrack and the real truth is I am always afraid of people.
What about you?

Sorry I think I'm high right now

Sorry I think I am high right now


Maybe it's because I just figured out who Icarus was and I am just feeling so much right now it's crazy. Does anyone else think it's kind of hot in here?? there are things that people don't seem to understand and it's so cliche to say it but there is no better way to describe it BUT WE ARE ALL ALIVE RIGHT NOW. DO YOU GET THAT?? Oh if I could just shake it into you people. It's a beautiful thing really, I could talk about that analogy of how we are all protagonists and how we are extras in other people lives but you all have heard of that before BUT NO ONE SEEMS TO GET IT but it's amazing. Whenever I take a break from being so self absorbed I re realize this and it's incredible to me every time. Like I always think I have everything figured out about a person and then they start crying in church and it's always a shock to me like what?? You care about stuff?? It's not just me?? But this post isn't even about prejudice or stereotypes or anything it's about being alive and how we all have our own crazy complicated lives and were all in each others lives and there are 7 Billion people on the earth that are alive and that's crazy to me. THATS 7 BILLION DIFFERENT STORIES DO YOU UNDERSTAND. 7 BILLION PEOPLE WHO LOVE SOMEBODY WHO CARE ABOUT SOMEBODY WHO ARE GREAT PEOPLE AND WE DONT EVEN KNOW THEM BUT THEY DO STUFF. PEOPLE HAVE LIVES AFTER THE BELL RINGS AT 2:15 ITS NOT JUST ME. I remember when I found out that teachers don't actually live in the school. That was crazy. You never know whats inside of people and I think that's the craziest thing of all. Like the fact that people care about golf is crazy to me, but people probably think my love for dogs is crazy so were even I guess. There are just so many things to care about and so many people who care about them THERE IS JUST SO MUCH WE ALL DONT KNOW ABOUT EACH OTHER AND WE SEE EACH OTHER EVERYDAY LIKE HOW IS THSI POSSIBLE.
I think that's what I liked most about the creative writing class, I was worried because creative writing has become the cool/hipster class to take and I didn't wan it to be lame, I don't really know what I am trying to say, I JUST DIDNT WANT THE CLASS TO BE FULL OF POSERS OKAY!?!? I wanted the class to own up to the hype because a lot of the cool/hipster things aren't actually as cool as you would think. ANYWAYS, creative writing, I felt like we were all telling each other our secrets except they all ended up being the same secret, hey we like to/can write!!! Because for some reason it isn't something you bring up in a conversation like "oh I am good at football"  "oh I work at Arby's" or "oh I am co-president of the yoga club" nobody is ever like "oh I am good at writing and I have a secret blog and yadda yadda" or at least I don't anyways. I don't know if I'm making any sense right now there are just so many people who I never thought would have an interest in writing on top of being good at it. The world is crazy. You never know. Like you don't understand but you could be sitting next to the future president of the United States. LIKE ANYONE COULD BE ANYTHING AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW I COULD BE THE NEXT OPRAH OR ASTRONAUT OR GAS STATION CASHIER OR HOVER-BOARD INVENTOR YOU NEVER KNOW. I DONT EVEN KNOW.



I am sorry it's like 12:30 and I am feeling overwhelmed by everything and I am sorry the only way I can express anything is by using caps lock and apparently the only adjective I know is "crazy" and I'm sorry if you read this whole thing and it made zero sense because it's late and I don't know how to use words but I needed to talk about this ok bye

lost boys

Missing Peron:
Boy, age 17 with long legs, long arms and long hugs.
A pair of feet that were always one step ahead of mine
A pair of feet that would always let me catch up.
A pair of feet that always seemed to know how to move on the dance floor
A pair of feet that didn't look totally terrible in flip-flops
A pair of lips always kissing the ground I walked on
A pair of lips always saying "I'm sorry"
A pair of lips always saying "It's okay"
A heart that was just as scared as mine and maybe that's why it never worked out
A pair of hands I never thought would wave goodbye
Witnesses saw him last on the day he was supposed to become the man of the house. He's been gone for awhile...
Check Main Street, check the gym, check the mountains, check the places where you can hear God, check under his bed. Because he is a little confused about where he's at right now
Keep an eye out and if you see him don't bother telling him to come back,
just remind him it's been awhile.