TO THAT ONE BOY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE:

I can't explain it.

I could have died.

I felt my heartbeat in my ears.

then all at once I couldn't feel anything at all.

It had been over 6 months, but nothing about you had changed. On the outside anyways. I don't know about your insides, but I hope they are still the same. I hope you still listen to the Killers and watch The Twilight Zone, I hope you still want to be a pilot. Exploring the world, and carrying people along the way. I hope you're still doing whatever it was you liked to do for recreation. I was too busy looking at your lips to remember what you said. You had the softest lips. I hope you still believe in God. And I hope you're still happy.

I hope you remembered me when you saw me. I hope you were proud. I was finally out of the house, participating in society, at a high school dance of all places. I hope you never thought I was weird back then. I hope you did. I hope you know my insides have changed. That I'm not as worried about things anymore, that I care a lot less and I feel a lot lighter. I hope you know that if I could do it over, I would have talked to you on the first day of class. And I probably would have kissed you too. I hope you know I had a crush on you. And that I never really stopped. Sure I may have forgotten, but tonight surely proved, time doesn't heal all wounds. You didn't mean to hurt me, after all, it's hard to know your supposed to catch someone when they wont tell you they are falling. I hope you know I don't blame you. This one is on me. But I really hope that if you had known, you would have liked me back.

I hope you had fun with her.

~sasha fierce~